Fear

This year we students class of 2015 are facing a life turning moment. Graduation. I am going to be very honest and express my fear of graduating. I am absolutely terrified of graduating. I understand why everyone is excited because you are supposed to be and it makes perfect sense to be, but I also think it's okay for everyone to be a little scared too. I am terrified because it is already October and I still have no idea what it is I want to even be. If i have no idea what it is I even want to be then how can I be truthful and honest to myself and make all my options available if I am already enrolling in a community college just to be on the safe side. I am so glad that in this class I read about the annotated articles on college. It really boosted my confidence and doesn't make me so scared anymore. I feel that ever since that I am now able to feel liberated. More often than not many kids have no idea what they even want to be in college. It's okay not to know. Kids also go into college thinking that they know their career, but they will eventually veer away from that also.I learned that I can traditionally take a gap year just to travel and figure out my life for that extended year. I also learned that I can do other careers that are well paying without the degree. I can go into the military or the Peace Corps. I was able to turn that fear into new found confidence.Everybody should be able to be confident about life after high school but not everyone is aware of these things and feel forced to go into college. The majority of kids who go into college with unsure minds may eventually just quit and realize it isn't for them. For example, the last year in a half everyone within my life has been telling me to go to nursing school because they have great benefits and pay well and there is always work within the medical field. I perfectly agree that it is a smart decision and that is something I truly considered as a life career but was unable to agree. I could not ever do that because I have NO INTEREST. I do not care to learn of veins and check on people. I could not be kind to those who are rude to me. I sure as hell can not wear that lime green scrub that they consider uniform eiither. I just can not. Now I do no have to either. I am able to be whatever it is I want to be. This is great because it takes away my fear. I am no longer scared of the future. I am content for now. I will go to a community just to figure myself out and take the next step from there. I learned that everything has to be one step at a time.