There's so much going on in my brain.

Hey guys! There's so much going on in my mind right now so I figured I would write out what's going on in my life on here. I just got home from my last Fall Concert ever for Mariners. I honestly don't know how I feel about it but I'm realizing now that I will never have to go through the pain of learning all the music and standing still on stage for a whole show when we usually dance the whole entire time. Part of me feels like it's going to miss it since it's the concert that starts off the year and gives a first impression but the other part of me is so glad that it's over with. I think that I'm going to get more emotional when it gets to my last Christmas and Tour shows, mostly Variety Show when all the seniors take their final bow. I can't believe that graduating is just around the corner and I haven't even started filling out any college applications yet. I know where I want to apply, but I don't exactly know what I want to do. All I know is that my dream is to go to New York. A lot of people are saying that I'm crazy, but I feel at home there. In New York, they actually have 4 seasons instead of all summer and one month of winter like California. I really want to stay here in California and get a job at Disneyland and go to college here to save money, but my heart is set on New York. The only problem with going to New York for college is because it's so expensive, especially since it's out of state. My family is super tight on money this year with all the expenses we have to take care of; tour payments, church events, bills, application fees, etc. I'm also trying to get a job so that I can start saving up for a car and my mom can stop complaining about having to take me everywhere but nobody wants to hire me. I'm stressing out over everything that is due too, I feel like everything is building up onto my shoulders and there is so much to get done. I have to memorize my Spanish article by tomorrow and I only have 6 words memorized, I have a Spanish project due next Tuesday, I have a history project due next week that I need to start, and I have a bunch of different rehearsals for Mariners related things. I really just need like a week off to process everything that's happening around my and plan out what I'm going to do to get everything done. Well, thanks for letting me tell you guys my thoughts, have a wonderful weekend!