Senior year and still not feeling it

You’d think that once senior year begins you’d feel it and think to yourself “wow this is my last and final year of high school”, however, I still feel nothing. It’s almost as if next year id be coming back to this campus, getting a new schedule, and seeing the same familiar faces I've known for the past several years of my life. It’s just too weird of a feeling that every day is sort of your last. When I think about it like that, it makes me want to make each day more special, even if it’s something small. I want to make my senior year worth remembering so when I look back on it I won’t feel any sort of regrets. This is the time to make things happen, to join that club you've had your eye on, the sport that you’d always wanted to try out. Sure there will be clubs and sports in college but why wait then when you can try it now. This is our last year to enjoy the time we have with our current friends until we all part ways. I’m surely we all know that after a certain amount of time we won’t be hearing from them again. I knew that for my senior year I wanted to make something more of myself so I set some personal goals. So far it’s not all going to plan. Just like the topic states, I’m just not feeling it. However, I’m scared that when I finally do feel it I know that I wouldn't be able to stop myself from feeling sad . I can still remember the 10 year old me thinking about how it'd be like to be a high schooler, to be going to college all grown up. I also clearly remember shaking my head and thinking that’s too weird to think about and continued doing some math problems. Now that its seven years later and that I’m finally in that moment it’s still kind of weird to think about. Also, everyone I ask seems to ask has some sort of plan of what they want to major in or hope to be. Others are just like me, clueless. I fear that I won’t find my passion in life, that I’ll end up working in a career that is a burden to me every day waking up to, but then again, who doesn't. For now I just hope that it’ll finally hit me that it’s our last year and enjoy it to the fullest.